It is a little before 5 in the morning and for the past hour I have been trying to go back to sleep with no success. I guess I have a little bit on my mind which is making the idea of sleep that much more difficult. Tomorrow is the culmination of a 2 year ordeal that my whole family, specifically my mother, has had to go through. Two years ago my mother was diagnosed with a brain tumor and had an operation to remove it (that part I will talk about at a later time because it was a doozy of a time) and everything was getting better until November of 2006 when they told her the tumor was coming back. They did one round of radiation on it and tomorrow we find out if this worked or not.
When all of this began to happen I was 34 years old and my mother had been a big part of my life. Afterwards though the lady that I had known my entire life was just a shell of her former self. My mother loved to talk to people, entertain guests, read, cook, and exercise. After the radiation treatment it was like someone else began occupying my moms body. She would refuse to talk to people on the phone, stopped cooking anything, and would refuse to leave the house. My moms day consisted of watching television and yelling at people for no reason. She would cry all day thinking that she would die and would accuse my stepdad of trying to kill her so she could get back with his ex-wife. She was just completely bizarre. Two weeks ago we found out why when we took her to the emergency room. After the radiation treatment her brain began to swell causing all of the mood changes. She is doing better now, but tomorrow we find out what the future holds. Saying I'm scared would be an understatement.
